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The Power of the Pencil: Embracing Your Inner Writer at Christmas
This is the first year I can remember not sending Christmas cards to everyone by the day after Thanksgiving. In past years, I designed many Christmas cards and had them ready to mail by the time the Advent season began. Not this year. This has become my year of wandering in the desert, waiting for Continue reading
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The Beauty of Hanging Laundry Outdoors Year-Round
Wow, 47-degrees. How could one not take advantage of a day in December with weather warm enough to hang the laundry on the line. Why would anyone do that? There’s something about the smell of nature that cannot be manufactured in a laboratory. You know the smell of the earth warming in the spring, the Continue reading
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Investing in Quality: The Importance of Good Foundation
Quality comes with a price, and some things are worth the extra time and money, including bras. No, I did not return to Victoria’s Secret in pursuit of undergarments. I opted for a department store, but I still experienced sticker shock, even with a half-price sale and deep discounts for being a credit card holder. Continue reading
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North Dakota Winters: Community, Grief, and Gratitude
Winter dropped. Not gradually, but in one day, we went from sweatshirts to ski pants. Here we are, beginning the Christmas season with snow and cold. Hopefully, you were one of the prepared and put those Christmas lights outside before the storm. Tomorrow, we gather with family and friends for a Thanksgiving feast, followed by Continue reading
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Aging Gracefully: Lessons from a Weekend Full of Scams
A most embarrassing post. I repeat, “a most embarrassing post.” Act your age. Has anyone ever said that to you? Maybe your mother would tell you that you couldn’t sit still in church. It’s been a long time since I have given much thought to acting my age, since I probably never have. I agree Continue reading
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Brief update ‘cause it’s almost Friday
One day of packing, two days of moving, three days at Mayo and the time change have been exhausting this past week. Not to mention, scanxiety at yet one more CT scan on Monday. Yes, scanxiety is something we all experience with upcoming tests. The most difficult part is waiting for results. The good news Continue reading
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Two months to get rid of Wilbur T. Fred
INDY Children began as a way for me to play Jeopardy with my children. I would supply the answers via blog posts, recipes, old photos and stories. You know, categories. When I am gone and they can’t call their mom and ask, “How do you do that?” The answers would be available digitally. Or at Continue reading
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The Last Bouquet: Clearing the Garden and Mind
Way back. At the beginning of summer, I sowed a 90-foot row of zinnias. The seeds are a combination of my saved seeds and gifted seeds from my Aunt Laverna. She has been saving those Dockter family seeds since her grandmother’s day. Zinnias are easy to grow. The colors, sizes and shapes of each bloom Continue reading
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Leavin’ the Garden of Weedin’
Yes, it’s time to say goodbye to the summer, and it’s about time. October is my favorite month of the year. The 10th month of the year provides chill nighttime temperatures for a relaxing sleep. During the daytime, the temperatures have been in the 70s, sometimes reaching the 80s, making it perfect for a walk-about Continue reading
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Harvesting Memories: A Journey of Resilience
It has been quite a year. Here we are approaching fall, speculating on whether winter will be mild or cold and snowy. The gardens are nearly done producing, and the root cellar has been restocked as the pile of empty jars goes down to nearly nothing. An awesome trade-off. Speaking of trade-offs, I have accomplished Continue reading
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Embracing Creativity: My Journey to Fargo
It’s already Thursday, and I am still struggling to complete a blog post. Well, this is my week of storytelling in person, rather than virtually. On Tuesday, I presented on my mission trip to Estonia. Today, I am in Fargo at the Sanford Survivorship Retreat. I took this opportunity to leave on Wednesday and spend Continue reading
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I’m worried about my worry worms
Before leaving for Estonia, we had a farewell lunch together. Nancy and I were flying to Estonia soon, and Shelley was praying for us. There was a lot of laughter, well wishes, and, of course, Shelley brought gifts. Then I shared my worry worms. The camp theme was based on Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount. Continue reading
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Exploring Estonia: More Observations
Words cannot express. I’m back from Estonia. Yikes, 24 hours on three planes with three-hour layovers is exhausting. It might take me a few days to get back in the saddle; however, there are tomatoes, beans, cucumbers, and more patiently waiting to be eaten or processed. I will see how long I last today. One Continue reading
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A Memorable Journey: History and Community in Tartu
Tartu, Estonia: Sunday, August 10 It’s been a whirlwind of a couple of days. But, here I am in for the first time in my life outside of the United States. There was time today to walk the streets of Tartu. We have had plenty of interaction with each other and with our Estonian hosts Continue reading
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Preparing for My Journey to Estonia: A Personal Reflection
All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go…… This is it. It has been nearly a year since I committed to traveling to Estonia for an Adult Bible Camp. The time has come to check in for my flight. My bags are packed, my testimony written, and my lesson planned. Some of my preparations Continue reading
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Challenges of Gardening (and breathing) in Extreme Weather
This was a good year to cut back on farmers markets. With the damage in my lungs and current medication, I have become sun sensitive, heat sensitive, and unnaturally tan. While it hasn’t stopped me from weeding and harvesting in the early morning, standing in the parking lot in this heat would be very uncomfortable. Continue reading
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In the Garden of Eatin’
My mother cared for the enormous garden behind our house in Fredonia, N.D. She spent hours tending those vegetables, and a strawberry patch of about the same size next to it. One year, to ward off the robins, my dad sat on the back steps and shot the first bird taking advantage of the red Continue reading
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Empowered by Faith
Sometimes I think people don’t understand. Doing things, even those that are outside of my comfort zone, is what keeps me going. It normalizes my life between those dreaded CT scans and brain MRIs. I am not immobilized by my disease; I am empowered by it. Which, on a side note, my next CT scan Continue reading
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From the farmer’s field to the mission field
Somehow, everything changes after the Fourth of July holiday. I can’t explain it, but even the weather seems to react to the shortening days. My garden has been loving the rain and there are signs of harvest popping up all over the place. Many of you know I decided to take some time off from Continue reading
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Weaving Success: My Artistic Journey began at Art in the Park, Mandan
My first job in Mandan was at the Mandan News and Finder. It was back then, in the late 1970s, that I was introduced to the town that celebrates the Fourth of July like no other. There were decorations, fireworks, rodeos, children’s events, and Art in the Park. It was at a booth in the Continue reading
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The Joy of Watching Grandchildren Grow
There is no greater joy than grandchildren. Somehow, while raising my children, I missed out on observing how a child progresses from non-communication to endless questions and observations. My friend Shelley maintains we are too busy as moms making sure they are fed and cared for to notice the nuances of the toddler stage. Being Continue reading
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Small victories and big heartaches
It’s June. I’m celebrating in a small way today. The month of May has passed, and I did not have a single lab, scan, MRI, or doctor’s visit for the first time since December of 2022. In years past, hospitals, clinics, and labs were minor annual blips on the radar of life. Doctor’s visits were Continue reading
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From Seeds to Serenity
Many families spent Memorial Day weekend on a lake, cooking out, eating watermelon, and relaxing. The rest of us, well everybody knows at least one, worked frantically planting our gardens. After the most welcome rain and ever-warming nighttime temperatures, gardening has begun in earnest. Overnight, the trees have greened, the grass lushed up and will Continue reading
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Lessons from ‘Warning’ by Jenny Joseph
Remember the poem everyone called “When I Am an Old Woman?” It was written in 1961 by a 29-year-old woman named Jenny Joseph. The poem’s real title is “Warning.” If you are not familiar with this poem, here ya go. When I am an old woman I shall wear purpleWith a red hat which doesn’t go, and doesn’t suit me.And I shall spend my pension on brandy Continue reading
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Celebrating Small Victories
Again, with Tom Petty (he’s a heartbreaker) and the lyrics to another song he produced —Sure as night will follow dayMost things I worry ‘boutNever happen anyway The song “Crawling Back To You,” was probably not written about crawling back to Jesus, but somehow the lyrics could easily mean whomever you trust to be there Continue reading
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The Emotional Journey of Medical Appointments
Well, it’s not Monday, but I thought I had better stick to my schedule and get a post out. It was a wonderful Easter Saturday, followed by the dreaded CT scan and MRI on Easter Monday. It’s Tuesday evening, and this Tom Petty song keeps going around my head. “The waiting is the hardest partEvery Continue reading
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Miss Sue goes to Washington
Like Mr. Smith, my first trip to Washington D.C. was an adventure. Who’s Mr. Smith, you are asking? Remember Jimmy Stewart in Frank Capra’s “Mr. Smith Goes to Washington.” Mr. Smith’s story opens with the death of a senator. When contemplating a replacement, Hubert Hopper, the governor of some western state, appoints an unknown Boy Continue reading
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Finding Sunshine
It seems winter has returned to our area bringing colder weather and the potential for snow. We sure could use the moisture. The cold, I am not so certain, has agreed with me this winter. I asked JC never to go south in the winter and play cards on picnic tables while golf carts buzz Continue reading
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A Year of Healing: Birthday Reflections After Cancer
March is a month of birthdays in our family. Growing up, my dad did not acknowledge birthdays. When the subject was broached, his answer was, “It’s just another day.” There were no huge birthday parties growing up. No mountains of gifts, and no grandparents in attendance, but we did get birthday cake, I think. When Continue reading
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Spring Renewal: Gardening and Recovery After Cancer
RSV + pneumonia + Daylight Savings Time + lot of schizophrenic weather = three weeks of “la-la land.” I’m finally beginning to come around and take care of my commitments. I was delighted that I made it through the first quarter of this year without having radiation or additional chemotherapy. Feeling good, naturally, I said Continue reading
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A time of German-Russian purgatory
When man plans, God laughs. It’s been eight days since my hospital stay. Eight days of German-Russian purgatory. For anyone joining me on this cancer journey, I recently posted my long list of commitments for the year, trusting I would be well enough to follow through. I was feeling so normal I filled my calendar Continue reading
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I’ve seen the end and it ain’t pretty
Ever had the wind knocked outta your sails to the point of capsizing the boat? It has been such a couple of weeks. I have spent hours gathering my thoughts to put down in words. I have seen the end and it ain’t pretty. The past two weeks have been colored with grief at the Continue reading
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Elsa Dutton’s Wisdom: Faith and Purpose in Life
1 John 5:14-15“And we are confident that he hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases him. And since we know he hears us when we make our requests, we also know that he will give us what we ask for.” I think I was born too late. True, TV westerns romanticize the past, Continue reading
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Embracing Life During Cancer: My Journey Forward
Somehow when you are painfully aware that you are in the winter of your life with a non-curable disease, you think almost daily, “What should I do now?” There are so many things I want to do or be a part of. What do I do? By nature, I am the type of person who Continue reading
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Finding Peace in the Cold: A Personal Health Journey
Creeeaaaaaccccckkkk. My heart skipped a beat at the sound of an unfamiliar crack. A very loud noise. The house at last surrendered to the weight of the cold that blew in overnight. It settled over the area like a weighted blanket. Below zero kind of cold creates a hush. It was quiet, as if Continue reading
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Gamma Knife Surgery: A Milestone in My Health Journey
We passed a couple of major milestones this weekend. I don’t want to be reminded how the past two years changed my life, but my husband did. In face, I would not have remembered January 11 if he had not invited me to lunch to celebrate. “Celebrate, my head in a box?” I asked. I Continue reading
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Christmas: Past, Presence, the Future
Christmas Past Two years have passed since December 2022 and the cough that changed my life. Forever. My darling granddaughter, Audenia, was born on December 30. I went to see her, came back, saw my doctor, and by January 2023 began a journey that I didn’t expect to last this long. Yet, here I am, living in three-month increments with lung cancer. Continue reading
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A Kaseman Carol: A Family Christmas Reflection
A few years back instead of sending a regular Christmas card to my family, I wrote a short story and created a Christmas Card booklet. I think it was before the advent of Shutterfly and Blurb because I printed, folded, and stapled a cover on it myself. It’s not a New York Times bestseller, but Continue reading
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Christmas bells. Cancer bells
Sometimes, reality sets in. None of my doctors have ever given me a timeline for my cancer’s course. I have never asked. It’s between God and me. I’m trying to move forward without dwelling on what happens next. So far, it’s been excellent news. We share that news at a group I zoom in on Continue reading
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Thanksgiving Reflections: A Miracle at Mayo Clinic
Dr. Pollack and his nurse, Kathy, stopped outside the door on the eighth floor of the Gondo Building at Mayo Clinic. It was the Wednesday before Thanksgiving. The conversation was of course about Thanksgiving dinner. “I’m going to wash the turkey, brine it and ….,” Dr. Pollack said. “Oh, no, don’t wash your turkey,” said Continue reading
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Thriving Through Anxiety: A Thanksgiving Reflection
It’s 4 a.m. I can almost smell the cup of Earl Grey waiting to be brewed as part of my morning ritual. “Is it too early to get up?” I ask myself before the next glance at the clock reads 5:37 a.m. That’s a reasonable time to get out of bed and enjoy quiet time Continue reading
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Early Detection: The Key to Lung Cancer Survival
November is Lung Cancer Awareness month. It will be two years in January since lung cancer derailed my life. I’ve been picking up and rearranging pieces ever since. Once I began the chemo/radiation regime in early 2023 I had no expectations of living out the year. Here I am, a different person, with a wholly Continue reading
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Embracing Faith While Facing Uncertainty
Imagine opportunities you can see across the Missouri River. You dig your toes into the sandy beach and shield your eyes from the rising sun. The shore looks a long way off. You aren’t a good swimmer and the water is cold. Inside your belly, a fire burns longing to get to the other side. Continue reading
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Let me tell you ‘bout my Jesus
It is done. Not the large tunnel, not the outdoor garden, not the small tunnel, not the flower beds — all of it. Everything. Done. In one day from green and growing to clean for sowing. The sun warmed the still air. People showed up by 10 a.m. By noon, three of us had dumped Continue reading
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Cancer changes everything. No. Cancer changes me
My mother’s health began to fail at the age of 80. I began to spend as much time as possible with my parents by stopping at their home in Jamestown while taking road trips for my job. My brother lived in the same community and this gave us the opportunity to connect weekly, if not Continue reading
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Cancer goals: A McIntosh County cemetery tour
One of this year’s “I have cancer” goals involves working less on my passions in life and spending more time with people. (I am an introvert and people wear me out.) I do love spending days in the garden or crocheting for my grandkids. However, it’s been a wonderful year of reconnecting with my past Continue reading
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Believe it or not, I’m at a loss for words this week.
My journey began in January of 2023. As fall slowly creeps into our overnight temperatures, I’m coming up on two years since the day my doctor called and told me the news. She sounded apologetic. It was after 5 p.m. She called a surgeon she worked with to please review the chest X-ray. He followed Continue reading
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Cancer, Gratitude, and God’s Tender Mercies
After a challenging week involving medical procedures and family events, the author expresses gratitude for their home, health, and support. Despite the ongoing battle with cancer, they embrace each day as a precious gift, drawing inspiration from a poem and their faith. The author encourages others to cultivate a spirit of gratitude and kindness. Continue reading
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Navigating Health Challenges with Faith: The Power of Prayer
We leak. It’s 3 a.m. Monday morning. My throat hurts. My left ear is throbbing. My eyes are wet but there are no tears on my pillow. There’s a storm brewing in the pit of my stomach. The peace of the past four days has dissipated like the morning mist on the windows from the Continue reading
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Navigating Life’s Seasons: A Tale of Friendship Through the Years
Karen and I met in college. Fifty years ago. 1974. Wahpeton, ND. North Dakota State School of Science or NDSSS. On a side note when people out of state asked me where I went to college, and I told them NDSSS, the next question was … Diversionary tactics are important when scanxiety sets in. Yes, Continue reading
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Overcoming Cancer Doubts: A Journey of Faith and Reminders
Some days I feel so normal, whatever that means. Some days there are moments I can forget I have cancer. My body seems to be working just fine. I can make it through the day without napping every hour. I can weed for hours on my hands and knees on a beautiful August morning. I Continue reading
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Fulfilling My Longtime Dream: A Journey to Alaska Amidst Cancer
Here is a scan of a yearbook photo from 1973 of my science teacher, Mr. Bryan Dinkins. I wish I had paid more attention to my studies back then; of course, I didn’t realize how much I used math and science in baking, sewing, weaving and almost everything else I do. If you can see… Continue reading
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Living with Lung Cancer: Navigating Memory Loss and Hope through Poetry and Puzzles
Tumors in the brain make you painfully aware of the memory loss associated with chemo and cancer. I’m always reading, writing, and playing word games to hopefully use up some unused portions of my brain that aren’t under attack at this time in my life. I feel like I am doing fairly well memory-wise, but Continue reading
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50th Class Reunion: Rediscovering Memories
As a journalist, I had the privilege of interviewing many people for newspaper articles and the two books I wrote about Germans from Russia. Most interviewees begin by saying, “I have nothing to say that anyone would want to listen to.” By the end of the interview, they would say, “Thank you so much for Continue reading
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There’s no such thing as 15 minutes in McIntosh County
Last week was a week of loss. First, my Aunt Alma went to sleep Saturday evening and woke up Sunday morning in heaven close to one month before her 96th birthday. Then my old neighbor, Jerry Serhienko, followed her two days later. There have been two new cancer diagnoses since then also.It must be my Continue reading
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Witnessing the Power of Prayer and Healing | Encouraging Update on Tumor Progress
SEEING THE FOREST FOR THE TREES It’s true. They say sometimes you cannot see the forest for the tree. It’s very true. Sometimes you cannot see the big picture when surrounded by all the stuff that gets in the way of your view. Details, feelings, other people’s feelings. It’s been one of those weeks. I’m Continue reading
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Spring’s Promise: Finding Beauty and Strength in the Garden
We are tying up loose ends as we prepare to head to Rochester, MN, to Mayo Clinic to “literally” have my head examined. Ask me how I feel about that. I am due for a MRI on my brain to see the progress on shrinking tumors hit with the Gamma Knife procedure in January. The Continue reading
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Cancer, Courage, and Cenotes: A Journey of Facing Fears and Finding Strength
The author reflects on a summer filled with normalcy, enjoyable farmer’s markets, and a trip to Mexico despite cancer. The vacation included confronting fears by snorkeling and exploring Mayan ruins. The experience taught that cancer can give courage and the support of loved ones is essential for moving forward positively. Continue reading
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Overcoming Loss: The Story of ‘Dan’, a Resilient Tree and Symbol of Hope
I love plants. My house is full of plants. If a leaf drops and you leave it lying on top of the soil it becomes another plant and they continue to grow and reproduce until you have a houseful of plants. The front of our house has a long porch with lots of windows. Those plants love it out Continue reading
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Winter is coming
The Stark family’s words, “Winter is coming,” resonate as the author reflects on entering the “winter years” of life post-cancer treatment. Facing uncertainty and limitations, they share lessons learned: cherish family, be generous, embrace individuality, and live in the present. Embracing this new phase gracefully, they find solace in focusing on what they can still… Continue reading
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Remember Aunt Alice?
A lightbulb moment. Everyone has one or two or three. It happens when your brain’s receptors are wide open, and something you have heard your whole life suddenly makes a whole lot of sense. Like how could you have missed it? And then there are six degrees of separation. In North Dakota, if you were born and raised here, we are Continue reading
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Uncle Ed
Uncle Ed is my father’s youngest brother. Shortly, way too shortly after my brother passed unexpectedly, and for unknown causes, there went Uncle Ed on June 3. I was heartbroken. You see, every uncle and each aunt contributed something to the person I am today. Every loss affects me differently, but this one was particularly Continue reading
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Life is short and then your taxes are due
I’m caught somewhere between spring 2023 and spring 2024 at the moment. With the medical benefit, Easter, my birthday, and the stomach flu, somehow I lost my bearings. I do, however, feel like I should have thanked everyone for the countless well wishes, cards, donations, love, prayer, and support that I don’t think I deserve Continue reading
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My new normal
When I saw my doctor last week, I said, “I know my life will never be the way it was before this all started. So I have to find a new life.” However, I didn’t expect this second round of dis-ease to feel like I was pregnant with an alien baby, or worse Rosemary’s. But, Continue reading
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The Effect of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds
“After radiation is better understood a day will come when the power from exploding toms will change the whole world we know. Some of the mutations will be good ones – wonderful things beyond our dreams – and I believe I believe this with all my heart, THE DAY WILL COME WHEN MANKIND WILL THANK Continue reading
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Coming out
By now, you may have heard the news about Defense Secretary Lloyd Austin’s cancer. There was quite a hullabaloo regarding the fact he hadn’t disclosed any information about his cancer before his recent hospitalization. Granted, I am not a VIP, and my cancer did not make headlines, but I know why he did what he Continue reading
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Normal is a setting on your washing machine
During treatments, I was encouraged to live as normally as possible. Not that my life appeared normal from the outside looking in, but I tried. After all, normal is just a setting on your washing machine. Sometime in March, after Claire returned to South Dakota, I mustered enough energy to start my seedlings. There wasn’t Continue reading
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Radiation treatment — the gift that keeps on giving
“What ya going to write about now?” My daughter asked after I posted the “Ring My Bell” video and wrote about that final day at the Bismarck Cancer Center in April. Well, my dear, radiation was not the end of my torrid tale of 2023. It was only the beginning. Besides, words circulate in my Continue reading
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Ring my bell, ring bell…
It’s here finally. I baked a couple of cakes. The first was a three-layer white cake with Swiss buttercream. If I am honest, that frosting tasted like I buttered each layer twice with sweetened butter. Lucy and I love white cake. Elle and I love chocolate cake. I never met a cake I did not Continue reading
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Tying up loose ends
While you might be waiting for the end of treatment post with bated breath, I’m side-tracking a bit this week. Somewhere between the end of the farmer market season in 2022 and the 2023 cancer diagnosis, I took on a project I have been meaning to attempt for some years now — collect the Kaseman Continue reading
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Easter came and I missed it
Pretty funny the things we remember and how we remember them. I have had to ask my daughter several times how long she was here. It was four weeks, or was it five? Before she relocated to Mandan for my treatment, she was looking at Pinterest haircuts for me. Not ever being shy of being Continue reading
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Game of Thrones, Yellowstone, lost in week three
It’s amazing the thoughts that come to mind when your life revolves around doctor’s appointments, chemo, radiation, and trying to consume enough calories to quit losing weight. I would NOT recommend this weight loss program to anyone.I quit writing, reading, talking, walking, weaving, sewing, and eating from weeks three through six and months beyond. Claire Continue reading
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There’s always a tomorrow when it comes to birthdays
JUST FYI: the birthday cake on Monday’s post was one that Claire made for someone else. IT WAS Not the strawberry one from the cancer center folks. X-rays, biopsies, doctor appointments, radiation, chemo, immunotherapy, nurses, weigh-ins, and cancer. These are the things that rob your memory. Thank goodness there are iPhones and sons. I mentioned Continue reading
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Week two treatment – Happy Birthday to me
The second week of treatment was pretty much the same as week one. Everyone at the cancer center was so nice. I told someone I knew why people went to the doctor as often as they did because they were treated with such tenderness. It might have felt like love.The staff also knew we were Continue reading
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Happy New Year, but 2023 is not over yet
It took me some time after I told my family and closest friends about my cancer to decide to let my church know what was going on in my life. If I said it once, I would say it again, “When I want to feel loved, I go to church. They accept me for who Continue reading
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Now what do I do?
After the first week of radiation, my notes became scarce. I became scarce. I am relying on the moments that make a permanent impression on my memory to continue my journey. And, there were quite a few. As I sit here and think it was like my life had become a movie called “Ground Hogs Continue reading
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Herbals versus narcotics for pain — April 2023
There’s a pain in my chest, my jaw, and my head all the time. I hate to be a baby about it, but I also don’t like downing drugs like candy. I tried Tramadol. I hate Tramadol. It gave me a migraine so bad I couldn’t do a thing. I gave it a second chance. Continue reading
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March 25, before the second week of treatment
Ed and Alice with Mom and Dad There are a lot of thoughts circling my brain lately. The first one is “I cannot do this.” I can’t go through six more weeks of this as the pain is likely to intensify. I’m so tired and hurt from the treatment and/or the side effects of the Continue reading
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March 19 — the day before treatment began
Entering the Twilight Zone and radiation/chemotherapy for lung cancer. Continue reading
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Welcome to the Borg
Star date 03162023 Forgive me for the long stretch of imagination in this post, but somehow I feel this year I have been inducted into a “collective.” In the year 2023, I became a member of an elite group and wear a foreign access device under my skin. I am connected to people with cancer. People Continue reading
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Two weeks of preparation and contemplation or my soul belongs to Jesus
My radiation/chemo treatment was scheduled to begin two weeks after the first appointment with Dr. Reynolds. I panicked, thinking that the cancer would surely spread in that time. My need to begin attacking these foreign invaders was intense. Dr. Reynolds reassured me that it takes time to schedule and create a plan for my treatment. Continue reading
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The woman in the (not iron) mask
I think I can, I think I can — I can do anything for 15 minutes. Nothing could have prepared me for the hijacking of my body the way cancer did. How long had those mutating cells been slowly taking over my lung? Had I been feeling healthy for a year, or two, or three, Continue reading
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PET Scan day
Another day, entering the unknown. The weather was awful, so we left for Bismarck early. My desire to get these exams over and done outweighed my impatience at sitting in hospital and clinic chairs for hours at a time, staring at the walls, watching solemn faces entering and exiting. Although arriving early to appointments, we Continue reading
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Identifying a tumor
We will soon know what’s inside my chest. My friend Shelley met us at the hospital at 7 a.m. on a bitter below-zero Wednesday, Feb. 22. The sun had not yet met the horizon, and the city was beginning to wake up. The hospital light looked dim in the surrounding dark, one of the only Continue reading
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What would a CT scan reveal before the biopsy and PET?
Without opening my eyes, my first conscious thought was, “I have lung cancer.” Somehow, my life began to blur and my mind moved to going over every detail of the past two months. At this point the word cancer didn’t seem etched in stone, but I knew something was not right. I didn’t have any Continue reading
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What was that cough?
The year began like every other year. Winter in North Dakota. A few nice days providing a taste of spring. A new found love of exercise, memories of my mom and the upcoming birth of a grand daughter. The end of December became the beginning of an unexpected journey. As with most stories it begins Continue reading
About Me
I love to write. My background is graphic arts and journalism. My roots are German-Russian from McIntosh County, North Dakota.
My time is spent reading, writing, gardening, cooking, blogging, fiber arts – you name it, we try it.
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